crushes and loved ones

my first buka puasa event for this year :)

i feel like writing in english. plz don't stop me. lolx

i feel the freedom. like soaring. FINALLY.
finally i'm over my crush. (and i can declare him as my ex-crush. haha)
finally i don't have to face the nervousness, the butterflies, the misery of thinking about him. i just don't mind anymore! x)
and i don't have to be worried of whatever he writes in his fb. it doesn't affect me at all.
and most importantly, i can face him and talk to him like old times. i don't care of what he thinks/feels. last time (tuesday) we had that laugh, the laugh that we never had since we're dealing with this relationship issue. and we could have that laugh again. just like when we were good friends back then. i miss that. tee hee.
may be we're better off as friends :)
and Alhamdulillah, as this crushy-feeling is not there anymore.
felt good at last. :)

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i'm not rushing myself into this craziness anymore.
later, will not 100% devoting myself liking a guy, as it may turn out as a frustration in the end. only 80%. haha
i'm looking more on personality (plus a bit of look?). personality stays till you grey. hee.

but for now, i'm going slow. and let it flows.
lolx